Relief

Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for the good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life. 
-Philippians 4.6-7


Today, I wanted to update my Facebook status.  I was looking for a song lyric that would perfectly describe my situation...I was looking at a few Secondhand Serenade songs, but then I looked over and saw my Bible.  It was open on my desk next to my laptop and I glanced to see which chapter it was open to.  

It was open to Philippians, chapter four.  I saw that I had underlined a certain verse, and I read it.  It was the verse that I have posted above.  That moment, I knew that had to be my updated status.  Haha.  It...describes my situation to a tee.  

This verse is probably my favorite verse.  I have so many verses that I like, but I seriously think that, tonight, this one became my new favorite.  I also love Psalm 31.24 (Be brave.  Be strong. Don't give up.  Expect God to get here soon), but...this verse..I just think I needed this one.  I seriously think that it was a God moment.  

This verse gives me such relief.  I have been reading it over and over and I feel more relieved than I have in days.  My life has been so weird and empty feeling lately, but this just made me feel whole again.  

I have been praying a lot.  More than I have in a long time.  I think that all these things that have happened to me...I think that God made them happen for a reason.  I have tried to come up with the best possible reason why God would ever want to do this...and I know I'm not God, nor do I know what he is thinking.  Yet, I feel like he simply made everything fall apart in order for me to grow closer to him again.  I don't presume to know what is going to happen in the future, but I feel like once I grow closer to him, and as I keep growing closer to him, things will start to fall back together.

I just need patience, we need patience.  God will work everything together in its time.  I mean, I know he will.  This verse says so.  It says that God will work everything together for the good.  I don't know what the good is, but I sure have an idea of what I want it to be, what I think it should and could be.  Maybe that's God's plan, too.  But...all I can do is trust him.  He will work everything out.  For him, for me, for us.  And that, those words, they give me relief.  

I have been fretting and worrying.  I have been so confused, hurt, sad, worried, scared, anxious, little and just...worried.  Mostly worried.  For everything.  But God says to transform my worries and all of these other feelings into prayer.  That is what I've been trying to do and what I'm going to continue to do.  

The Bible says it's wonderful what happens when Christ is the center of your life. Gosh, I bet that is such a wonderful thing.  

All I know is that God is gonna work this out.  I just need patience.  He gives me hope.