The key

I really want to know the key to patience.  I feel like if I just knew how to be more patient, I'd be more kind, genuine, loving...life would be a lot easier not just for me, but for others.  Recently, I've been kind of ugly on the inside.  I keep saying I'm going to quit it, but it creeps back into my head again.  Have you ever kept on doing something, knowing it was wrong, but still kept it up anyway?

God isn't going to give me anything I can't handle.  Everything in this life I can overcome, we all can. At least mentally. Sometimes, terrible things happen.  I don't understand why my grandpa has cancer or why some of the cutest children in the Quad Cities don't have enough clothing or food to eat.  There are a lot of things in life that happen that I cannot really understand.  But I guess that's life.

Sometimes I just need patience to work through things now and faith that it will all work out in the end. This reminds me of the quote, "Everything will be alright in the end.  If it's not alright, then it's not the end."  It's really hard, at least for me, to believe those words.  If everything is okay in the end, then why do some people die in an unexpected shooting or illness?  I doubt everything was okay for them when they were faced with whatever tragedy.  However...that's where I think faith comes in.  Maybe not everything will be okay in this life, but when we get to heaven, it will be.

My faith in God is becoming stronger each day because I know He will work everything out.  He will give me patience, but only if I ask for it.  Patience for the smallest and biggest of things.  I am becoming someone who I don't want to be...and I need to ask God for the patience that will get me back on the right path.  Perhaps we all do.  Maybe faith is the key to patience.

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