"When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?
I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find
'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up
I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and gifts we got Yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end you're still my friend, at least we did intend for us to work
We didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am.
I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up...
I won't give up on us
(No I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough, He knows
(I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn
(We are alive, We are loved)
God knows we're worth it
(And were worth it)
I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up..."
~ I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz
I've been listening to this song on repeat for the past half hour. It's probably played about..9 times. Okay, maybe not 9..but a lot.
It's a beautiful song about not giving up..on friendships, relationships (romantic or not), and life in general. Mostly, about love. I know that in many points in my life, I have wanted to call it quits. I have wanted to just..leave, get out, and forget about everything. Sometimes, life just gets so complicated. It gets so difficult and lonely. Sometimes, I feel like I have no one, when I actually have a lot of people. Sometimes, those people just aren't here with me, and that's okay..because God is.
"Even the stars, they burn, some even fall to the earth"...even beautiful things fall to pieces and have low points. I believe that sometimes the most beautiful and most wonderful things in life have to fall apart in order to become stronger in the end. That is what makes love and life itself so interesting and complex. For it to progress, it must overcome the deepest obstacles. If it is simply all happy-go-lucky all the time, there is no room to make it better.
Often, when something breaks or fall apart, it takes time to fix it. Last year, I broke my ceramic flowers I had made in art class. I dropped them on accident and some of them shattered into three or four pieces. I fixed them, but it took time to make them beautiful again. I had to wait for the glue to hold the parts together and the paint to dry. Although, once everything was fixed, it was worth the patience. They looked beautiful again.
I feel that this is how life is sometimes. When good things go bad, they don't recover overnight. When relationships walk through rough and rocky roads, it isn't always that easy to fix them. Most of the time, it's extremely hard. It takes a lifetime to build up a solid, amazing relationship but it only takes a few seconds to crush it. It takes so much time build a car, but once it gets into an accident, it is ruined. But, the car can be fixed..and so can relationships. Every relationship is different..whether it be with a mother, father, sister, brother, friend, best friend, boyfriend, girlfriend, etc. Some relationships crash harder than others..but I think that with time and love, they can be mended.
That probably sounds really cliche. But I think it's true.
"And when you need your space, to do some navigating, I'll be here patiently waiting, to see what you found." Sometimes, people need to figure out who they are, where they are going, and who they want to go there with. People think about their future. Everyone is in that position at some point in their life...it's natural and inevitable. It comes with graduating, getting a new job, meeting someone special, going off to college, and just simply growing up. It's such a fascinating thing to me-that we think so much about who we are. I mean, who am I? It's such a crazy question and takes so much time to really figure it out. But I'm going to be patient. I'm not giving up. I'll wait for him, as long as he needs, and when he is done navigating, he will tell me. Rushing it is the worst thing I can do.
"I'm giving you all my love, I'm still looking up, I won't give up on us, God knows I'm tough, he knows, we got a lot to learn, God knows we're worth it." In the meantime, I will love and look on the bright side. I am breathing. I am alive. I know of at least five people who love me. I have God. This is so worth it..it can be so beautiful. It will take time, but that is okay. Everything that is good is worth waiting for.
God knows that I am tough, he knows that we all are. When we are exploring who we are, he gives us strength. God knows we are worth it--and he isn't giving up on us. He makes everything beautiful in its time. Some things take more time than others, as do some relationships. It is just really bittersweet.
I guess what keeps me going is hope. Hope that someday, this relationship will be more beautiful and stronger than before. I'm not giving up on us, on life, on anyone..and neither is God.
